Restoration Road

What do you do when the people you deeply love continuously hurt you over and over again? I can only imagine what God must feel like when we make bad choices and move away from Him. This pain is deep. This pain is wide. This pain is leaving gaping wounds on my heart and in my soul. 

The road to restoration is a 2-way street but what do you do when you are the only one on it? Turn around and give up? Do you think that’s what God would want us to do? Maybe just park right where I am and wait? For how long? I know that’s what I need to do, pull over and park but it doesn’t make the pain go away or even lessen. 

I have been studying the beatitudes and they are coming to mind as I write this. How can I apply what I am learning from them to this part of my journey?

Blessed are the merciful for they shall be shown mercy.

Matthew 5:7

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they WILL see God.

Matthew 5:8

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be sons of God.

Matthew 5:9

I can boldly come before the throne of God and seek HIS mercy and grace. But if we don’t show mercy we receive judgement. If we don’t see God, we are not in heaven. If we aren’t called the sons of God we are outside the family.

John 10:10 says:

The thief approaches with malicious intent, looking to steal, slaughter, and destroy; I came to give life with joy and abundance. 

When you are the only one on “Restoration Road,” I believe that’s exactly what the devil wants. He wants to discourage us to turn around and give up. He wants to destroy completely the relationships you so desperately want to heal. He doesn’t want you to park and wait. He wants you to turn around and give up.

BUT. . .

James 4:7 tells us:

So place yourselves under God’s authority. Resist the devil, and he will run away from you. 

When we place ourselves under the authority of God, HE will give us the strength to resist the devil. HE will give us the endurance to stay parked, waiting for the opportunity to move further down the road, closer to restoration and the abundant life that Jesus promises!

 

Words

This was written by someone very special in our lives and we think it is right on!

Quite a few years ago, on my birthday, I woke up late and hit the floor running. Hurriedly showered and dressed and headed off to work. Arrived at work and realized that I had not called the night before to check the recorded jury duty message. So I quickly called and of course my number needed to report by 8:30am, now 8:15am and had to drive in morning season traffic 15 miles. Was gonna be late, so told my boss what was going on and left, with the phone number for the jury selection office ringing on my cell phone! Got there just as they were escorting us jurors to the courtroom for selection process to begin. Once there the judge gave everyone instructions, then announced the numbers of the first sixteen jurors that had been randomly picked for questioning by prosecuting and defense attorneys. Yes, I was the 16th number, we were ushered to a special seating area. The defense attorney asked this question, “Do you believe the nursery rhyme, sticks and stones may break my bones but WORDS may never harm me, is true?”. I’ll never forget how that question made me feel, sick to my stomach.

Words…..so many of them filled my mind, and the faces of those that had said them to me. Those words had harmed me all my life, made me feel less than, a failure, ugly and fat, undeserving, unwanted, not worthy, unlovable, fearful, untrusting, a pile of garbage, lower than anyone else, just not enough. Certainly not unharmed!

Words are abuse unseen, they bruise you, cut you & bleed you where others can’t see. In your mind, heart and spirit. So how then can anyone help? Someone can help, not just anyone. Someone that thinks you are truly special and are worth dying for, worth giving perfect love and driving out all fear. This unconditional love requires nothing, no strings attached. It is there for taking, I took it. I got healed, and now when WORDS try to harm, I can give those words to HIM and He restores me with HIS love.

I am a beloved daughter, a princess

I am blessed beyond measure

I am surrounded by mercy and grace

I am given songs in the night

I am called valuable

I am free of from sin, guilt and condemnation

I am accepted and adopted

…….and so much more. Everyday in His WORDS I find more and more that “I am”, you can too!

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